Something that I don’t plan on including in my future is drinking. Since … I dunno, partying has come up in my life, I have never been interested. I always turned the other cheek and walked away, acted like it wasn’t there; heck, I never really understood that it was there and just how much it was there. I’ve never liked drinking for several reasons. My dad is a drinker, my mom partied in high school and it got her no where, I’ve had boyfriends who have messed up when they drank, friends who have made bad choices, just numerous situations that have set my mind to believe that drinking is nothing important, nothing fun, nothing that needed to be in my life. Several people close to me have began to drink or have experimented with it and with so many people doing it nowadays, I do get curious. But at the same time, how much more I would love to sit and brag about how I waited ‘til I was 21 to drink rather than brag about how much beer I can bong in however many minutes. Heck, I don’t even know how bonging beer works. But anyways, I have sort of thought about it. But then I think how it’s only three more years. People claim that when they drink, they create some of the best memories of their lives. But five minutes later, they claim they can’t remember anything from that night. They weren’t that great of memories if they don’t make enough impact for you to remember them. Maybe I should stop venting about drinking and just explain why I’m writing this. I don’t want to end up with the entire school threatening to trash my car because I projected my opinion. And if anyone has a problem with it, I’m all ears and always willing to listen to your side of the story :)
Continuing on…
Today in first hour, I was talking with some people and something was said about going to Michigan. And a few people said that when I went up there I was going to see everything possible. Well yes, I know that. And it scares the crap outta me. I don’t wanna come back a partier, someone who would rather go down a beer than study for my upcoming exam. I don’t have room to mess up or get screwed over. Like I said, I have no room for change. And drinking would be changing. As we continued talking about this all, I sort of changed my mind. I began to believe what they and I was saying. I basically agreed and said that I would probably end up coming back the best partier and kick everyone else’s butts in beer pong/bong. I began to realize that I was changing just so I could get in on the conversation. Why? I don’t want to drink … I want nothing to do with it. So why was I changing that?
So I’ve decided to vow that I was at least going to hold out until sophomore year to experiment with alcohol (wow, do I sound like a nerd). Yes, it’s not the goal I started with but I know that holding out just ‘til then is going to be so hard. I’m in high school and I’m having temptations, imagine what college is going to be like with no parents, no supervision, no anything to stop me.
But I’m going to do it :)
Ps-
I found this quote on an old friend’s profile on her aim account … Mara :) And I absolutely love it.. so here it is.
A broken heart is not what i wanted from this,
but i guess i've learned from it.
But aren't you supposed to learn from your mistakes?
I don't consider this a mistake,
I just wish the story didn't end this way,
Cause i'm still in love with the person who helped me write it.
Rememeber when you held my hand
like you'd never let me go,
Remember when we talked about
where we'd be a year from now?
and pss-
i frickin hate valentine's day.
and i'm sick of the cheesey love commercials.
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