Here I am, the girl who has had the same goal her whole life, has allowed nothing to stand in her way, has done nothing but fight hard to achieve this goal, and here I am, on the brink of working towards this goal and taking the next big step and I'm doubting it.
It's something I've honestly been struggling with for a long time. I know a lot of this struggle is knowing how many other things I want to do with my life... and I understand that it is possible, especially in this day and age, to accomplish so many larger than life goals, but some of my goals are so larger than life, I am worried I have to prioritize to do just a few instead of so many.
Part of my problem is that I have always been so many steps ahead of my actual age, or at least that's how I label it. When I was in high school, I was mature enough and ready for college. When I was in college, I was mature enough and ready for grown up life (or premature grown up life), and now that I'm in (premature) grown up life, I'm ready to be in real grown up life (hopefully this all makes sense... it does in my head).
I don't think I am ready to prioritize a set of goals yet, I just know what so so many of those goals are. So instead of placing a bunch of pressure on myself to pick out my favorites, I'm going to just list them, pray about it, and let it come as it may. So prayers for my acceptance and wisdom to realize what these intended goals are would be beyond greatly appreciated.
- write a novel. or two. or a series. AKA multiple published works
- become a doctor, ultimately an ophthalmologist but I am becoming more open to just doctor in general...
- travel the world
- Italy (anywhere and everywhere)
- Rio de Janeiro, Brazil
- London, England
- Greece (anywhere and everywhere)
- Hawaii
- Alaska (in the summer ONLY)
- Germany (not sure where... just there)
- Morocco
- Australia
- Belize
- Cabo San Lucas
- The Great Wall, China
- Thailand
- New Zealand
- Bora Bora
- and so so sooo many more.
- Run a marathon, and eventually qualify and run Boston
- Fly across the country for New Years Eve and hit every time zone's New Year's
- Start and maintain a fashion blog
- Rescue multiple dogs from shelters
- Continue to play soccer, or coach, or something.
- Travel somewhere that needs my time and volunteering and help more than anything I could do here
- own a pair of Christian Louboutins (so materialistic, yes. I'm sorry, I'm human. My second calling would be clothes sooo...)
I know I initially need to set some short term goals before achieving these long term, ultimate goals. So I have decided to write a list of those as well. I think putting these out on pen and paper can help them become more realistic.
- Finish my Master's program at MSU
- Exercise 6x/week
- Spend money more wisely
- Update my wardrobe : )
- Keep up with my blog more regularly
I feel like these can ultimately lead to so many of the above listed goals so that I can be better prepared for them.
Mostly, I need to pray. and I need prayer. because this is something I've been wrestling with for too, too long.
