some things never change..

One of the truest things that can be said about life in general is that above quote. I am not pessimistic about change, nor am I optomisitc. I've found change to be empowering at times
... and a sidenote, I'm watching Sex and the City and the episode is about change and how Big is an idiot who won't change for SJP, coincidence, yeah? ...
and I've also found change to completely tear me apart. I've come to fear change for the most part. I've learned that change can be a good thing, a positive thing, beneficial almost. I've also learned that change can bring out the worst in people, or the best.
Change recently has taken a toll both physically, mentally, and emotionally on my life. It has also brought about great things and unfortunate things all at the same time. At a time in my life when everything is about to change, I'm willing to embrace the fact that high school is over and done with, that the chapter of immature fights, drama, and hour's worth of homework- total. I am ready to move on to the chapter where I am an official adult, where I'm responsible for myself and only myself, and meeting the people that will most likely be present in the majority of the rest of my life. Perhaps I'm being too optomistic about the whole college scene, but I kind of have to be..

Change also comes in other ways, which include not so positive or beneficial ways.

Funny how everything and nothing can come together perfectly, but other ... things ... can't.

tanning lotion, mash, and prom dresses

Today was a great day. I caught up with a lot of friends and had a riot doing it.



First I went out to the lake and hung out with Lindlee; this included coffee, working on my tan, and the usual gossip and 411 about our lives. We talked about college, boys, friends, high school, and more college. After sunbathing for a few hours with much gossip as well, we left and I went home and cuddled up with a magazine and and a book as I waited 'til seven when our MASH night would begin : )

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We had a blast. There are pictures on my facebook that enclose exactly what went on. First we got a movie ( I seem to have forgotten what it was though .. nope. Charlie Bartlett. Grrrreat movie! ) and then we got bored; so we played a little dress up. First was the cocktail dresses.. and the crowning : ) then we put on my prom dresses and went into town to Kroger's and had a tea party and looked at books as well as took ridiculous pictures and get countless, yet priceless stares as we paraded down the cereal and toy aisles. We then ventured to Mauck school to the playground where we proceeded to take a ridiculous amount of pictures doing random things that no one would understand but ourselves : )

Be jealous.
Be very, very, very jealous.

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When I grow up, I wanna be famous.

First off, great song : )



Second off, not true. I do not wish in any way to be famous. I think it would be extremely difficult to live up to the standards set by the press, the public, and fellow celebrities. I would not want to be placed in the spotlight with the constant unhealthy critisicm, the ridiculous amount of pressure, and still balance out my life, career, money, love interest(s), family etc.

Celebrities are forced to live up to the high specifications made by no one but ourselves; then when they crack under the continuous pressure, we point our fingers and critisize them even more and express our dissappointment.

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This is an older post as well (the 12th) but I'm going to continue it. I'm pretty sure I can remember my thoughts on the subject.


I believe that unless you are born into stardom, it would be an extremely difficult and possible failure to adjust to the lifestyles they live; I'm sure the lavish parties, exclusive clubs, and unfathomable fashion is a definite plus to their daily lives. I'm talking about the gossip that surrounds them and keeping up their appearances as well as making appearances. There would be no privacy, everything would be exposed (ahem, A Night in Paris... need I say more?) Not to mention everyone would know who you were dating, the closest you've been to naked, and what underwear you recently purchased.

No thank you.

I'll just stick to my hickish, farmer-like, Hillsdale roots where one mention in the paper is the closest to stardom I will ever get.

Invincible.

There are many times I consider myself to feel invincible, that I can accomplish anything, that no one can tear me down or push me out of the way. Times like strutting down the driveway before I take of for a run, or when I piece together a killer outfit, or when I read something incredibly inspiring. A lot of times, I often feel invincible when I am with someone specific.



I used to feel that way when I was with David. Whenever he was around, I felt on top of the world, like I could save the world. No one could tell me no, no one could shut me down, I was going to to do whatever I wanted and would have taken whatever it took to get there.



This post is very old ... July 8th to be exact.

I still feel the same way, except now I'm not so invincible.

puddling with piddle

I just got back from orientation and a wonderful weekend at the lake : )

I don't know why I was nervous at all for orientation. It was an absolute blast. I learned so many different new things, got a taste of college, and met a bunch of new people. I honestly didn't want to leave at all.

They are definately some great things that happened, I can't wait to see what college has in store : D

• #1 memory by far is puddling/mudsliding in the Diag at 1230 am.
• the crappy breakfast, lunch, and dinner served at east quad. sucks to live there.
• kids from brazil/texas.
• "who were those hooligans playing in the rain last night?"
• roaming the streets at 10pm and bragging to mom and dad about it.
• euchre in the lounge.
• "did you guys go streaking on the M?"
• fudge bars : D
• cardgames in general.
• my michigan community discussions.
• the theatre production thing ... even though it was long.
• "do you know of any frat parties tonight?"
• candy bars : )
• karl's cat piddle.
• "fck detroit country day." "yeah, well where are you from?" "hillsdale." "yeah, well fck hillsdale."