values.

Values. Morals. Ethic. Honor. Regard. Respect.

A value is defined as


val·ue

/ˈvælyu/ [val-yoo] noun, verb, -ued, -u·ing.
–noun
1.
relative worth, merit, or importance: the value of a college education; the value of a queen in chess.


I have high values, high standards, high morals. I don't lower them, I don't change them, they always stay the same. I want to do something with my life; I don't plan on wasting it away doing things that aren't worth, well, anything. I also value my time, I don't waste time unless I'm getting around for the day which can take anywhere from fifteen minutes to an hour. But that's besides the point.
I try to hang around people who have the same morals and ethics as me. I don't want to surround myself with people who will try to change me, or persuade me to fall short of what I expect of myself. I want to be associated with people who are a good influence, who also have values, and who push me to be all that I can be so that in turn, I can do the same for them. I don't want friends who don't care, friends who push me aside, friends who don't have goals or aspirations. I want friends with drive, with goals, with feelings.
This is why I feel how I do on the subject that has been brought up. I don't want to be fantastic bff's with someone who partakes in these actions simply because I believe it shows their inabilities and their weaknesses. Is it so difficult as to resist until the legal age? Is it completely necessary to consume beverage to have a good time, to relax, or be depressed? It is a depressant so people who want to have fun with it just end up feeling bad eventually anyways. You have to have a backbone, you have to be able to stand up for yourself. Especially if I'm looking for someone to be more than friends.
When it comes to you on this subject, that's how I see it. You used to have the same exact values and goals as I did. You wanted to go to college, you wanted to get a good job and start a family and love someone with all of your heart. You didn't want to drink or smoke or do things illegally. You had your morals. And since then, that has changed. You let your guard down, you allowed someone else to change the very way your clock ticked. You felt that same way before I met you, I never convinced you to think otherwise. If anything, you instilled in me those values to be even more powerful and important to me. But then, you fell short. I continue to ignore the fact that you don't feel the same as I do on these subjects. I remember that feeling I got around you, how you felt around me, how crazy we were about each other.
Now that you have changed your ways, I don't know that I can continue to forget about these things. I'm not asking you to change again, because I know you're too stubborn to do so. I guess, I don't know. I suppose I am asking you to change, but I want you to do it on your own. I don't want to be the one to do it for you.
I already know that won't happen though.