At first, I was just excited. You know, yay. I'm going on a vacation. Whoo. Okay, then I just sorta forgot about it. I got tied up in other things, I wasn't concerned. That was my mother's job :) Then it got to, oh man, in a month. So the excitement level maybe bounced up a notch :P Then it was two weeks and it bounced up a couple few notches. And now, it's tomorrow. And it couldn't be at more perfect timing.
The way everything is working out right now, a vacation is exactly what I need prescribed. I have so much on my mind, chest, heart, plate, and I need to just push it aside for a bit for some "me" time, family time, girl time :) I'm not saying I want to forget about everything going on back home, I just want to relax and have my only worry be whether or not I remembered my sunglasses from my room when I go to lay on the upper deck.
I'm ready for that white sand, the perfectly clear, aqua blue water, and the sun that never goes away. Forget that stupid crap we call snow up here, bring on the heat wave :)
At the same time, I'm worried about going on this vacation. First off, we have to fly. I'm not a jet airplane flier. Yes, I've now officially ridden in a small plane, but that was different. I knew the pilot :) But in a jet plane, there could be terrorists, turbulance, turbans, and take off's. Not my cup of tea.
Second, I don't want to fall behind in school. I've done that before. Mono. It didn't work out well.
Third, there's things I'm worried about. Especially after being cut off from the world for a week straight. And when I say cut off, I mean cut off.
I don't know what to do. I'm afraid if I let you in again, you'll do the same thing. Why can't you understand that?
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